The time has almost come

I am almost 5 weeks post op from Jaw surgery and at 6 weeks i'll post the good the bad and the swelling. Most of the swelling is gone, I still have pain in my jaw joint.

I am Sooo excited to eat. I'm an eater for sure. So unfortunately i've only lost 10lbs and now that i can put solid food in my mouth (and swallow it whole) I'm starting to gain it back. eff. I was so excited to be really skinny. Haha I can fit into a smaller dress size but I would have needed to continue the weight loss to officially state that. So that's kind of a bummer, but mostly I'm excited to eat. I've narrowed down my celebratory meal to either be a Bonzai burger from Red Robin or all you can eat sushi. We shall see!

Toddlers and Tiaras for Halloween!

By far one of my most favorite Halloween Costumes to execute. How hilarious is this? AND you get to be pretty. Pretty and funny at the same time. I'll take it!

Dress from Deseret Industries for $6, Underskirt and Socks from Pibs Exchange, Homemade Sash, Tiara and Binki from Dollar store...and WAM! I'm a Sexy Baby

ten years later

No words. I just pray. Help them. Bless them. Please help those who haven't already to find peace and comfort.

http://lds.org/study/prophets-speak-today/unto-all-the-world/heavenly-father-is-with-us-in-every-season?lang=eng

Oh snap! 5 Appointments to go until surgery

So my Nose surgery for my septum, nasal valve and Sinuses is in.... 11 days 9 hours, 22 minutes. Ya... there's an app for that.

And the biggin in is 13 weeks,5 days, 8 hours...

I have 5 more appointments 3 weeks apart until the big day. December 14th! I am now in stainless steel wires and my orthodontist Brian Graf is making artistic arts bends to get my teeth where they need to be to fit together. Next time i go in and from here on out they'll be making study models of my teeth to observe where my teeth need to go! Here's another photo update!

Side where you can see how far back my jaw is when i chew

Open bite when my jaw is aligned where it is supposed to be. My first orthodontist told me that my bite would eventually close and that chewing gum would help! wack job..

Side profile with my jaw back where I chew

Side profile with my jaw forward...about what i estimate I'll look like after surgery.

Nerves...Freaking out 4 months in advance

In less than a month I will begin my sojourn of the corrective reconstruction of my FACE! I would say i'm being dramatic, but that is quite literally what's happening. And naturally the nerves are starting to sink in. And my poor orthodontist gets the brunt of it. I've already had this unnatural automatic reaction to cry any time someone hits my nose. Not because it hurts but because I have had 3 nasal surgeries! WTF is going to happen when now my whole bottom 3/4ths of my face is eligible for this reaction.

I guess i'm just so terrified that something will screw up and I'll go back to the way I am now. I could care less about the pain or the discomfort. I can take it. I just want it to look good, i want it to be even, and I don't want to get hit in the face a month later and screw the whole thing up! I was climbing into bed the other day and hit MYSELF in the face...oh heaven help me.

It's so hard after the first orthodontist I had to just trust these incredibly qualified specialist with the result of my most complimented feature. oh my gosh i need to calm down. But wouldn't you be worried if your were forking our like 10K and your face?! And it was all in the hands of two men...whom, i don't know! Are they good people?? Do they like me as a person? If I wine too much, will they do the equivalent of spitting in my burger by screwing up my face?!

Dear Dr. Graff, Dear. Dr. Stosich...i love you guys...please do me well.

Update of my face!